22)Poems
So my ex bf, Daniel, drunk calls me last night. He read about Alan and thought that he was my bf. I haven't had a bf since we broke up, just to clarify things up! He asked why I didn't love him or wanna get back with him. So I pulled out my old journal and found some poems that express the way I felt after we broke up. Some of these feelings were also present during the time we were together. History repeats itself and I have the power to keep mine from repeating, thus the choice to remain friends. Daniel these poems are dedicated to you:
WHEN I THINK OF YOU
4 yrs. of promises never fulfilled
I never held the rope to the moon
I never held the world in my hands
I never even felt a band on my finger
I never had you to hold me at night
I never even had your time
All I had was a body pillow to fight
WHY DO YOU MISS ME?
How can you miss something u never had?
How could I ever make u mad
When you never had me?
How did I ever make u sad?
When you never had me?
Why do you call & tell me u miss me?
When you never had me?
Why do you say that I was your eyes & now can't see
When you never had me?
When did you make a promise come true
When you never had me?
SUICIDE (part of me did die) **this was written during a visit to Daniel's house
I'm a stranger in my skin
My heart is empty within
Should I open my mouth
Why did I come to the South?
All I want is to be with you
But I always feel like poo
When I see your eyes everything disappears
The world stops & you're all I hear
My heart really isn't empty b/c I don't own it
A heart like mine doesn't fit
My soul has been long gone
I keep asking myself what went wrong
This world never stops spinning
And for me there may not be a happy ending
Love, money & happiness is success
But I have none I must confess
No one understands, not even you
All I want is for you to say who
Why must I always fret
To myself I am a threat
The end of the world is near for me
All I want is to be happy
So now everyone can have their way
Keep on living is all I can say
WHEN I THINK OF YOU
4 yrs. of promises never fulfilled
I never held the rope to the moon
I never held the world in my hands
I never even felt a band on my finger
I never had you to hold me at night
I never even had your time
All I had was a body pillow to fight
WHY DO YOU MISS ME?
How can you miss something u never had?
How could I ever make u mad
When you never had me?
How did I ever make u sad?
When you never had me?
Why do you call & tell me u miss me?
When you never had me?
Why do you say that I was your eyes & now can't see
When you never had me?
When did you make a promise come true
When you never had me?
SUICIDE (part of me did die) **this was written during a visit to Daniel's house
I'm a stranger in my skin
My heart is empty within
Should I open my mouth
Why did I come to the South?
All I want is to be with you
But I always feel like poo
When I see your eyes everything disappears
The world stops & you're all I hear
My heart really isn't empty b/c I don't own it
A heart like mine doesn't fit
My soul has been long gone
I keep asking myself what went wrong
This world never stops spinning
And for me there may not be a happy ending
Love, money & happiness is success
But I have none I must confess
No one understands, not even you
All I want is for you to say who
Why must I always fret
To myself I am a threat
The end of the world is near for me
All I want is to be happy
So now everyone can have their way
Keep on living is all I can say
posted by Es at 6:38 PM
6 Comments:
You should call him and ask him what is motives are/were. Perhaps he wants you back, or maybe it was the beer talking. Regardless, you owe it to yourself to see what he is thinking when it comes to you and him. But definitly make sure he is in the right state of mind!
thanks for the comment, but this was a jealousy call. he had just read my post about Alan and wanted to know who he is. daniel and i have had these "conversations" when he's been in the "right state of mind" and supposedly he wants me back. but i can't let that happen again. we've been broken up since nov. 2003 and his feelings for me are still the same.
Sounds like your ex deserves to be alone if he makes you feel like what your poems expressed. Men never change, they bad ones just find women who are willing to lower their standards for a lifetime.
YES! Men never do change! And I've gone over that with my ex.
Esmerelda,
After everything that has happened this week with Dan & me, I heard this song and thought of you right away. Hopefully you have gotten the hint, he doesn't want anything to do with you!
HOMEWRECKER
Well you're a real hot cookie with a new hairdo
Your high heel boots and your credit card
Long legs and a mini skirt
Yeah you know what works and you work it hard
You smile like such a lady innocent and sweet
You drive the men folk crazy,
But any girl can see
You're Just a Homewrecker
I know what you're doin'
You think you're gonna ruin what I got, But you're not
Yeah you little go getter
I'll teach you a lesson
If you get to messin' with my man
You don't stand a chance
No, you're just a homewrecker
I'm sure you waited for a long, long time
To find a man like mine
But honey you're too late
So before you go and make your move
Maybe me and you should get a few things straight
There's two ways we can do this
I'll let you decide
You can take it somewhere else or we can take it outside
You Litte Homewrecker
I know what you're doin'
You think you're gonna ruin what I got, But you're not
Yeah you little go getter
I'll teach you a lesson
If you get to messin' with my man
You don't stand a chance
No, you're just a homewrecker
He's yours. Period.
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